it's rain

rain at night is different from rain during the day. rain during the day, you can see it and most of the time get caught in that more than night rain. for me, rain during the day usually occurs while i am at school and sometimes while i am indoors looking out. i think about mud sliding, a potential tanning day ruined, or how i would hate to be wearing white. rain at night, you cant see it most of the time. you can only feel, not see, and hear it. rain on your roof at night makes you thankful that you are inside and not outside. it is raining now.
its now 10 pm and i havent done any homework what so ever. or even showered yet. and therefore i feel extremely gross and unaccomplished. i can say this because i doubt anyone reads this. i am wasting life and electricity and time. this is horrible. i should do something. like homework. or study. or figure out how i can get everyone to like me. yes, figure out how to get everyone to like me.
now my mind has skipped to this line from the movie "adaptation" in which donald, the main character's twin brother, tells a story about how he loved this girl in high school, and even though she made fun of him behind his back, he loved her still. his brother asked why he still loved her even if she made fun of him. he said that it was his love, and not even she could take that away from him. im not sure if that made sense to me. how can you possibly love something, knowing it had negative feelings towards you, and go on like that? how is that possible? oh wait im doing that now and it killing me. it must not be possible. sorry donald, i think i found a flaw in your movie script.

anyway, i should go do something useful with myself like shower and homework and sleep. i want to do something great. and i want things to be great for me. that would be great.